I just became overwhelmed with sorrow as I realized how much I'm going to miss my big brother... He's moving from Temple, TX to North Carolina in the next week or so. I don't see him a lot as it is, but the distance is going make it even harder. In reality I'll probably see him close to the same amount as I do now. I'm going to Temple tomorrow with my mom to help them finish packing. Did I mention my sister-in-law is pregnant? It's a boy and she's due in June. Not only will I probably not get to be there for the birth, but he won't be a Texan! I'm going to miss them so much. I'm really sad right now :o( I hope I can hold it together through the weekend. When Mom and I leave them on Sunday I hope I can hold it together for her. I know she must be heartbroken.
The thing about kids is that you love them more than anything else on the planet. You hurt when they hurt and you cry when they cry. You celebrate with them and mourn with them. I'm so excited to see what the next chapter holds for them, but I'm so sad to see them go. It's got to be so hard for her to not be there when her grand baby is born... Perhaps God will work one of his many miracles and we can be there for this little blessing. If not all of us, then at least her. Every Grandma should get to hold her grand baby and look into their eyes. Maybe I live in a dream world to hope for such a thing.
My heart hurts for my mom... Come Sunday I'll do my best to hold it together and I'll be there to hold her hand and supply the Kleenex.
P.S. Sorry this post isn't exactly sunshine and kittens. You caught me at a weak moment...
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